6.3.25 ~ 9am

Mood: yuck

Banger of the day: Day Dreamin by Vacations

Dinner: meatball

The air is sooo icky rn. Checkin airnow.gov, the AQI where I am is 255. THAT'S INSANE. The rain isn't gonna help either. My garden getting the stank :(( and the mason bees aw poor things.

All I can do is stay inside and be bored.

6.1.25 ~ 4pm

Mood: sleepy sunday

Banger of the day: The Forest Town (Pikuniku OST) by Calum Bowen

Dinner: wraps again (we're addicted)

Outside of work, I've had a couple of pretty chill days. I tried to go to the park on my own, but I guess it was supposed to rain that day. I had no idea, so I got rained on for a bit. I discovered my fate when I walked outside and peered down the alley. Dark clouds stood at the end. I kinda wanted to watch it roll in, so I went to the park anyways. On my way there, I passed the world's most fragrant tree. It smelled so nice. I should have left the house much earlier to catch the sun because the whole point of me going out was to catch some rays. My legs are so pale. They needed sun desperately.

I worked a couple nights which was mostly unremarkable. However when I came back home, my partner had "found" me some gifts. The gifts were a couple pinecones. He also "found" (at the gas station) a bag of muddie buddies and arizona tee gummies which are delicious btw I highly recommend.

You know how I said that I just wanted to be in the sun? I am kind of obsessed with sitting in the sun rn. It like fixes me for a bit. Well, my chances for good sun are ruined for the next few days. Canadian wildfires are blaring, and the smoke is making it way down to where I live. The sun shining down is bright orange and the sky is white instead of blue. It's like there's clouds, but it's actually smoke in the upper atmosphere. This makes my sun time difficult.. The advisory for the air quality goes until Monday evening, but I think it'll be extended. Apple Weather makes the air quality stuff look so much scarier on the map because of the colors. It is cool to see how it's flowing, though. So far, the air hasn't been that bad. I did wake up feeling pretty not great for the first day (Saturday). I greatly dislike how low air quality makes me feel. A couple years back when the air quality index got up to like 227 here, I was feeling genuinely ill. You get headaches, nausea, and just generally feel weird.

I don't remember where I mentioned it, but I have definitely mentioned the past wildfires on my site somewhere. I TOOOOOOTTALLY jinxxed it by saying that I hope it doesn't happen again. It's not that bad this time around. The AQI is supposed to get up to about 100 which, idk, to me, doesn't seem too bad. It doesn't feel good. I'm missing the sun rn tho......

This opaque smoke in the sky makes the potential to see the aurora tonight dicey. So from the Space Weather Prediction Center, had issued a G4 alert. The scale goes from G1 to G5 with no activity not appearing on that scale at all. If you saw the aurora in May 2024, that was G4 to G5 I think? From how I understand it, the G-scale exists for the general public to understand the severity. To me, the KP-index is much easier. Idk I trust NWS and NOAA to be the experts at communicating the severity of natural events to the general public tho.

So, apparently it was visible last night which I missed out on, but I can't complain too much. I saw the aurora three times last year. I've been trying to see it since because it just feels so magical. This particular storm came from an M8 solar flare. I'm not too knowledgable about the types of solar flares, but I defo wanna learn. I think it's cool. Space weather is kind of weird and feels a little dubious. I think it's even harder to predict and forecast than weather on Earth.

NOAA put out a G4 watch, and in it, it says "We will not know the true nature of the CME structure until it arrives at our solar wind observatories..." so like we really don't know how the CME (coronal mass ejections) will affect Earth.

Wish me luck with the aurora hunting tonight My hopes aren't high, but I do still wish.

5.30.25 ~ 9am

Mood: bruh moment

Banger of the day: Heart to Heart by Mac DeMarco

Dinner: i forgor

I am dreading work. I woke up early just to have more time in my day that wasn't at work. These kind of days are when I really question why I give hours of my life to this shit job that I can never get back. It gets a little existential, and I get grumpy. What's extra stupid is that I only work like three days a week lmao. It's not even that much time. These next two shifts are intense private events, so I need all of the luck yall can give me

Added:

♥ fall shrine

♥ charborg shrine

♥ blog post

5.29.25 ~ 2pm

Mood: OMG SUN BACK

Banger of the day: Poltergeist by Deftones

I LEEEEEET YOU PRETEEEND

BUT YOU KNOOooOOWW TRUTH IS THAAAAT

I LOOOOVE YOOU TO DEEEATH

LIKE YOU LOVE THIS GAAAAME

(i lov deftones)

Dinner: Martha's Big Breakfast

I started doing the media page and a couple new shrines, but I literally made this face

at the idea of writing anything. I don't wanna do it rn just not feelin it. Imma go outside for the rest of the day. I need to touch grass. My head hurts.

5.28.25 ~ 3pm

Mood: missing the sun

Banger of the day: Salad Days by Mac DeMarco it's been stuck in my head since i woke up

Dinner: big salads; we ate junk for wayyyyy too long

The neighbors got a tiny cat that they found in a pile of car parts. She's really tiny, and they set up a camera to watch her in her little enclosure. She's really soft and sweet. Just really really loud.

She's like two weeks old? Something like that. Eyes open, ears still folded, and tail still triangle shaped. I'm really hoping she lives cause she's so cute and I'd actually cry so hard. I cannot handle cute animals dying like at all.

Coming soon:

♥ media page

♥ blog post

♥ new shrines

I'm gonna start making a new site for my profesh work too. I'll link it when it's done maybe? Idk yet. Also going to make a cool site for my partner. He likes writing n stuff, and I've been telling him to do it for a long time now. I'm gonna force him to.

goodbye

5.25.25 ~ 5pm

Mood: i wanna sit in the sun all day

Banger of the day: Latex Techno by ftshsm

Dinner: pizzzaaa mmm

Gonna be a longer one because I just want to talk about the strange folks I met at work over the weekend. So, it was a grateful dead related thing. I can't say too much about it because I don't want to doxx where I work, but just think like hippie jam band with older fan base. They all looked like normal middle aged people. Most of them are men. Got called "babe" a lot which normally is ick but it was super w/e with these guys. I don't like it, but I mostly didn't care. They gushed about how cool the space was (bc they were microdosing shrooms and really feelin it), and it is cool! It's a unique spot with unique architecture and lighting.

Most of these people remembered my name really well somehow. When the music was playing, they just swayed? Like I get that their feeling it, but someone needed to start a pit or something I stg. Just start swinging. Their very nice very cool merch girl spun in circles the whole time. How did she not get dizzy??? The band all remembered me so well, so I was able to do w/e I needed in the green room without issue. One of them would quietly say my name every time we passed each other. Nothing ominous. He was just stoned. That's the main reason why none of these people icked me too. They're all fucking stoned out of their minds. I deal with drunk people passing out or people in k-holes. I'd gladly have deadheads or metal heads over any other groups of fans any day. They don't puke. Ultimately, they were cool asf. I just don't get it at all. Mad respect tho!

Before the people showed up, I talked to this guy from the neighborhood who professionally drank SIX gin + tonics. I can't even do one. I'm so pussy, but also mm beer. We talked about his foraging and good food. I really liked him. We gushed about ramps. I am so inspired to finally tryu foraged mushrooms because of him. I love the look and science of mushrooms, but I don't like eating them. I'll eat them in a good wine reduction, but that's it. I need to try a chanterelle and chicken of the woods.

Ok that was too long my bad

Still working on:

♥ garden update

♥ media page

♥ blog post

did:

♥ put my email back on my about page; I did not realize that I accidentially took it off..

if you wanna email me, it's garfriendyay@gmail.com. Garfriend was taken :(

im gonna sit outside and eat my pizzer

5.24.25 ~ 11am

Mood: w/e

Banger of the day: life imitates life by quannnic

Dinner: wraps?

Ok so at work, we're doing a grateful dead related thingy, and what the fuck is up with deadheads. I DONT GET IT. Why are they like that? How are they so passionate about this type of music? I just don't understand. I get there's a lot of weed and acid involved, but I don't get it. They're usually pretty nice, too, but they were cranky last night. It's a two day thing, so I have to deal with them again today. Dreading it. The musicians are really nice tho.

Still working on:

♥ garden update

♥ art-a-whirl page

♥ media page

♥ blog post; mostly done just some edits, additions, etc. It's scheduled for the 29th.

i wish this was my fate -->

5.23.25 ~ 12pm

Mood: need more coffee

Banger of the day: IN A MOOD by berryblue

Dinner: had to forage

I might go on a three day fishing trip next month. My whole thing is fish, but I have a big secret yall.. I have not gone fishing since I was a child. I think my dad wanted a son, so he kinda raised me as one. We went fishing like every single weekend when the weather got warm. We were too poor to buy gear for ice fishing, but we would have done that if we could. I do believe in just bait and tackle fishing. NO TECH!!! Little underwater cameras n stuff is for losers that are too scared to sit in the sun all day and get burnt. All you need is one million beers, cabelas rods, and snacks. Nothing else.

I kinda want a pen pal. I have a lot of envelopes and stationary. I just wanna write letters to people and get their letters back. I think it'd be so fun.

I'm working on a webpage that is forcing me to think about my career goals again. It's kind of nice because I feel like I forgot and got off track. Not that I was ever one track to begin with, but idk it just makes me to feel more organized to write out what I actually want in my life and career.

Still working on:

♥ garden update

♥ art-a-whirl page

♥ media page

ok byyyyyee

5.22.25 ~ 11am

Mood: foggy

Banger of the day: Top Dog by Magdalena Bay

Dinner: some ground turkey rice thing; hard to explain ngl

My partner doesn't know this, but I have new cowboy boots coming today. He's gonna be mad at me He loves me tho it's ok he'll be fine. My drip is unmatched and unstoppable.

Working on:

♥ garden update

♥ art-a-whirl page

♥ media page

luv uuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

5.21.25 ~ 1pm

Mood: sleeby deeby

Banger of the day: BORN TO RACE by PXRKX + INXFLAXRE

Dinner: slow cooked chicken tacos w/ avos, onion, + queso fresco

So it's official between my partner and I. I will be doing Art-a-Whirl next year. I really want to get a studio even though I have no true use for it, but the rent for it isn't that expensive. I could pay $200/month for both studio and display space with utilities included. I think it'd be so fun, and my partner wants to hang out in those buildings really bad (I do too of course).

I'm thinking about making a whole webpage about my journey to Art-a-Whirl. I think it'd be so cute. I've found myself using this website to be more of my brain and digital garden rather than Obsidian (which I also love using more than Notion nowadays). I think it'll be super fun!

Added/updated:

♥ buttons for my moots (gonna add more eventually)

♥ MY OWN BUTTON!! Take it!! Feel free to use it!!!!♥♥♥♥♥♥

♥ links on main page to "media" and "art-a-whirl;" actual pages for those to come soon...

5.19.25 ~ 11am

Mood: so tired omg but good

Banger of the day: Ray Mysterio by the Alchemist ft. Westside Gunn + Conway the Machine

Dinner: ramp egg bake w/ ricotta

Holy cow I am absolutely wiped out from the weekend. I went from working crazy events to walking a part of Art-a-Whirl like three times. I'll write more about Art-a-Whirl in my blog. It was fun and a lot colder than last year. I do hate being sweaty, so it was great for me.

Art-a-Whirl is a sick Minneapolis thing where artists in the NE neighborhoods open their studios and sell their work. It's massive and there are hundreds of artists. It happens every May. I love it, but it is so tiring. Like I said tho, I'll write more about it in my blog.

Time to resume normal life and hopefully do Art-a-Whirl myself next year

5.15.25 ~ 10am

Mood: too busy to think

Banger of the day: Thunderstorms and Neon Signs by Wayne Hancock

Dinner: frozen pizza

Work is gonna be soo busy. I am super dreading it. I got two crazy events back to back and lots of luggin shit around. I hope I look tuff after all of this. Then I'm gonna be walkin a million miles for two days. Oofda. It'll be fun tho I get to see a bunch of artists and feel imposter syndrome about it. I got storms to look forward to hence the song choice for today.

5.14.25 ~ 11pm

Mood: god so sweaty..

Banger of the day: No One Noticed by the Marias

Dinner: pasta

I did it. I gave myself tattoos. I just did the fish wish shoes, the two space ones, and a halbert. Rules honestly. I wish I wasn't so sweaty tho.

Added/updated:

♥ garden update

5.12.25 ~ 11pm

Mood: i got too warm

Banger of the day: KMAG YOYO by Hayes Carll

Dinner: wingstop..

bapple...

bapple...

you will let me drink as many bapples as i please...

5.11.25 ~ 11pm

Mood: sleep

Banger of the day:

this

Dinner: pad panag

Outside has been so nice..

The urge to tattoo myself again has been strong.. I am even drawing on myself with pens to see what my ideas would look like. I got a couple sewing projects that I want to do too.

Busy week for me this week. I won't be as active. Love y'all

Added/updated:

♥ garden update

5.8.25 ~ 11am

Mood: I REEEEALLY don't want to work

Banger of the day: I Never Lie by Zach Top

I SLEEP LIKE A BAAAABBBYY I NEVER SHOW UP LAAATE FOR WORK I DONT DRINK WHIIIISKEY

Dinner: man idfk

I went on a good walk yesterday, and I saw some fun stuff.

Everything is in bloom, and it's soooo exciting. My favorite flower, Lily of the Valley, is starting to bloom in people's yards. I first noticed it from the smell walking by a patch that was about eye level to me. It is a somewhat generic flower smell, but there is a distinct note to it that I cannot describe. I'd ditch all of my obscure gender neutral frangrances to have a pure Lily of the Valley perfume, but it's such a fleeting smell that there is no good perfume that replicates it well.

I stuck my face into a crab apple flower and got pollen stuck up my nose too.

We saw this big ass stump which was much bigger than any of the trees in the neighborhood which made us kind of assume it was an Elm tree that was lost to Dutch ELm. We cooould be wrong tho. It was wide enough that I could curl up just a bit and sleep on it.

I do be lookin at cars a lot when I'm out. Minneapolis has a lot of strange cars which rules because I think super cars are so overrated and boring. I like the WEIRD STUFF.

Not that weird, but there are sooo many second and third gen Ford Rangers in my area. They are somewhat coveted within the artsy folks. I am one of those artsy folk. I want a ferd ranga' sooo bad.

I saw a Saab 9-3 which was a treat. Deep down, I reeeally want a Saab, but from people I know, they're a pain to keep up with. Parts are really hard to find. I just think they're so fun, though. I want one still.

Lastly, I saw a Subie Legacy wagon. BAAALLLLER. It was cool asf. This person defo loves their wagon cause they fitted it with grey Sparco Terra wheels.

Added/updated:

♥ fixed about page; idk what happened it like just broke.. but it should be ok for now

♥ garden update

Ok that's all

5.7.25 ~ 1pm

Mood: chillin

Banger of the day: W01 by Sweet Trip

Dinner: hot dogs on da grill

I am thinking about tattooing myself again. I do it a lot with professional grade materials + proper procedures. I just don't do it on other people. Anyways, I have a few ideas floating around. Right now, my legs have most of my tattoos. I want to get more on my arms.