a mini blog of sorts
apr 18, 2026 - 3pm
mood: sleepers jeepers
It's shop opening day :] yippee
The truck battery in the xB was funny, but I did get the proper battery. The truck battery was truly not too crazy for the xB, but it would cause strain on the alternator long-term. Been driving her around to use up the old fuel. Running into a lot of other xBs today. They're everywhere!!!
apr 17, 2026 - 11am
mood: SLEEPY
I put a truck battery in the xB. It works. It's only like 30 more watts than the actual battery. Yeah.. it's ziptied in.
apr 15, 2026 - 11am
mood: bittersweet
The weekend was full of grief. I won't go into it too much, but death struck our lives. It was expected. Doesn't make it hurt less. We'll be okay. My role in it all is to support, so I'm in a weird-feeling headspace about it.
Everything else has been going well. As I wrote in my fish feed, I've been obsessing over drawing and painting. I don't know what happened. I just haven't felt this since college.
A couple final shop things to do, and we'll be go for Saturday.
apr 10, 2026 - 6pm
mood: burping
Integrity splashdown soon :] yippee very exciting
Finally got to cleaning up the garden too. I've been just drawing the past few days. It's been fun.
apr 7, 2026 - 1pm
mood: inspired still ! ! !
I feel like I am neglecting my site a little bit. I feel bad! I'm just super focused on my artwork stuff lately. More of career planning than making. I have 11 days until the shop is open which is exciting, but still lots to do for it. I just feel like I'm bubbling over but in a good way? It's still kind of overwhelming because there's so many things I want to do and need to do. Still on a job hunt for a job that is good enough for now, but I know whatever I do, I will probably hate it. The job I was denied was kind of the gold standard and the ultimate "normal job" in the city. (Normal job = like a part time job) There's a couple places still that seem okay. I dream of a library clerk job again tho but with my county rather than college. Honestly, I wouldn't mind finding a little job back at my college, but I don't see myself being faculty.
I ramble too much. Anyways, I am going to go back to my creative endeavours.
apr 5, 2026 - 2pm
mood: inspired
My head hurts a little bit today, and I wish it was slightly warmer. The sun is nice tho.
Been on some small adventures. Saw many interesting cars like a V12 Mercedes, restored Trans Am, Lemons Miata, this disassembled Lambo, and more. We encountered Hank, the cat. I've mentioned him before, but he's the world's sturdiest cat. I've never encountered such a beefy cat before. He guards our yard, and he comes with a friend, Shade. She's a black long haired cat. We saw Hank in the shadows first. I thought he was an opossum, and then all of a sudden, a second cat appeared. Hank's name isn't actually Hank, but it is something very similiar like Joe or some old white man name. We just call him Hank. He's a very loving cat.
My partner and I have been closely following the Artemis II mission of course. We love space a lot. I'm a big fan of the rovers personally. We've made plans to catch the Artemis IV launch in person. This is the same year as our planned Australia eclipse trip. Maybe since we're in Florida, we do Dry Tortugas? We're thinking about it.
apr 2, 2026 - 3pm
mood: bored
We were supposed to get snow again this week, but it's just cold rain. I love rain, so this is very exciting for me.
My little seedlings are doing well. So far, I have four green beans and two peas sprouted. There's some little things poking out in the others, but I don't know if they're actually what I planted or rogue plants. The dirt I used is from a bag that sat outside for like a year...
mar 27, 2026 - 10pm
mood: mmm beer
I've been obsessed with this ambulance show that is on youtube lately. I love this shit.
I am putting a bit too much pressure on myself with the zines I want to make. I have the transcript written for one already, but I think after this one, I outta make one that is more visual.
If anyone is going to a No Kings protest, be safe out there!
mar 26, 2026 - 1pm
mood: bored
Stickers printed!!! For those looking forward to it, I think I will be opening the shop on April 18th. It gives me time to market it elsewhere too. I still have zines to make, and I have to write out all of the boring admin stuff too. Not excited for that at all.
mar 22, 2026 - 4pm
mood: i think i am cranky oh no
I spent yesterday in bum fuck nowhere playing with a straight-piped chevy aveo in the mud and shooting guns.
The plan was to mess with the skidloader, but it was too muddy. We also couldn't go in some places with the aveo because of the mud. We'll definitely go back when it's drier. Instead, it was beer and guns.
The guns in the mix were a magnum revolver (probably a taurus), 1911, CZ40, AR15, SKS, and a glock. I've shot the glock before, so not new to me. The cz kept jamming. It was really nice when it did work tho. AR was boring asf, but made my ears ring. I didn't get to shoot the SKS. I keep being told that a 1911 as an EDC is crazy for me, but idk man I found it easy to shoot. The revolver was insane tho. Not nearly as scary as I thought it was going to be. It did give me slight hammer bite, and I wish I was brave enough to have shot it with one hand. That thing was fun.
The backstop was a pile of tires with no dirt or sand, so uh don't do that. I was also not deep in the beer myself. My friend's dad was getting pretty drunk and handing us loaded guns to shoot. He realized that I could actually hit things so I was getting handed the 1911 and CZ over and over. I'd empty a mag, turn around, and have another gun in my hand. I also wasn't instructed on how to use any of these. I only had DA glock experience. I think a lot about how guns are designed to be extremely ergonomic and intuitive. Anyone with any sort of coordination can pick up a gun and mostly understand how to use it. There's a couple of things that might be in different places, but they're all relatively the same even if you're using some strange KelTec shit.
mar 19, 2026 - 6pm
mood: chillin
The snow creeper died yesterday. It collapsed. Heartbreaking.
mar 17, 2026 - 6pm
mood: wtf
On my Deftones shit again. I saw someone describe their music as a man moaning in your ears. Is that supposed to be a bad thing? . . .
The snow creeper is frozen solid now. It's pure ice. More snow to come, so I might have to dig it out to prevent it from looking too . . . like something. This last second snow is making it hard to get the dirt I need for my seedlings. I'm gonna have to go unbury it. I just hope I can keep them warm and happy enough. Light isn't an issue since I have a grow light for them.
The xB has decided that she is completely fine now. The battery is still dead af, but no more misfiring. I didn't do anything to it. She didn't act up at all when we got the scanner on her. My friend was laughing at me cause I was so insistent about the misfiring. When she was acting up, it was a lot of misfiring like she sounded like a train. We jumped her, hooked her up, let her warm up, took her around in the snow, beat on her, red lined here and there, and NOTHING. Not even a single misfire. Sometimes cars just misfire once or twice. It's normal. Not the xB. Not a single misfire.
She does NOT like being jumped also. Like it's fine, but it sounds like heerrrnnough errnnouugh. My friend said that she sounded like a car that has sat for decades. The stupid fucking caliper groan stopped too. Whenever my friend is around this fuckass toaster, it acts all perfect. Little shit.
mar 16, 2026 - 4pm
mood: desolate?
Helped build a creeper in the yard. The storm gave us plenty of good, dense material to work with. It HAD to be green to make sure people knew what it was. It's totally going to look like a cock and balls by the weekend.
I didn't get the job I interviewed for which is disheartening. I know I said that I would't get my hopes up, but I did. I just want to be comfortable.
Not feeling like much other than lost.
I'm gonna stare at the snow creeper to bring myself some sort of joy.
mar 14, 2026 - 7pm
mood: cold
Almost completely recovered from my covid. I just have a little cough and stuff nose.
We're getting a snowstorm here. I haven't payed much attention to the forecasts for this. I was looking at the storms in the south on Monday-Tuesday and not where I live lmao. I've seen forecasted snow measurements as "low" as 9 inches and as high as 19 inches. It's supposed to be a record-breaking storm. Last week, it was almost 60º. We had to get our heater back on because it's supposed to be -4º on Tuesday. Hahah yay... The heater is a beast tho. She's chugging and keeping me kind of warm.
I am making chili tonight so mmm cozy. While I cook, I have clips of River Monsters on. I used to watch it as a kid. Jeremy Wade is the coolest. When I grow up, I wanna be like him. The guy survived a fucking plane crash. I was HUGE into Animal Planet and the Discovery Channel when I was younger. Steve Irwin's death still hurts me to this day actually. Andrew Zimmern did an exclusive dinner for my college's auction (which raises money for scholarships), and the child in me was really excited about it. He's been volunteering at soup kitchens in Minneapolis lately. I like the guy a lot.
Time for chili :)
mar 13, 2026 - 2pm
mood: sick. it is covid.
Occasionally, I will go on social media mostly to schedule out posts (yes, I post on it still), and I have noticed that fish are stupidly popular with artists these days. I am consistently ahead of the curve on many subjects. It can be defeating though because it feels like my artist indentity being taken away from me if that makes sense. I drew mushrooms before everyone drew mushrooms which made me stop drawing them as much. It happened with weevils too. I'm kind of heartbroken that it might happen with freshwater fish. I just want to have a silly muse that no one touches. I don't want my work to seem like I made it to be "on trend." I genuinely love fish. I was making a fake Muskie beer brand in 2023!!! I'm trying to not be too sad about it because truly who cares? Illustration is just really competitive, and it's like seeing potential jobs being taken away from you.
I make art because I enjoy it, but it is also a career. It's not just a hobby that I can make whatever I want because I like it, and I don't get to be all carefree about it. It's making work to solve problems for clients. Your niche has to perfectly address the problem a client is looking to solve. It's a business not a hobby. I can't ignore critique either. Critique is incredibly valuable for me especially when it comes from non-artists because illustration is meant to face people that may not be the most artistically-inclined people. If cars become a popular illustration subject, I think imma lose my mind. Anyways, sorry about the rant.
The supposed cold is actually covid. I'm a professional covid-haver B) This is really mild. I just can't speak because my throat hurts so badly. I am doing better than I did the other day tho. Not excited for the weird tickly cough I get at the tail end of covid. Still waiting to hear back about the job too. It seemed promising, but I was one of the first interviews.
Imma go draw in bed now :p
mar 11, 2026 - 11pm
mood: sleepy
Just adding a few cars before bed. Try to not say "I love swedish cars" when writing about a swedish car. Level: impossible. I go sleep now.
mar 10, 2026 - 6pm
mood: fuzzy feeling + aching
Weather cold. Sun gone. Drawing okay. I made udon soup with carrots, cabbage, tofu, + a boiled egg. I feel like I could go pass out. I am so fatigued and sore. Still figuring out if what I have is covid or a cold. I was fine this morning!!! Now, I feel like I can't keep my eyes open. Growing up with parents that are ex-Lutherans means that I refuse to rest. I gotta work all the time even in illness.
The interview went well. I really don't want to get my hopes up just in case. I would be distraught if I didn't get it. It's a super competitive spot in a department that people usually don't leave. I'd be working with people that have been there for years already. All other departments have horrible turnover.
So my manager would be one of my landlords, but he's a chill guy. He's not going to be weird about it. Plus, his wife is my legal landlord. He is the maintenance department. He just learned my last name from the job application. I was at the place when I ran into him, and he had to ask if it was me that had he had scheduled the interview with cause he truly did not know. His wife had to tell him that I was their tenant.
In the interview, he went to the scheduling and room for growth like immediately which tends to be a good sign in an interview. Most of my job interviews are just making sure I am real. For my last job, it was more of a tour of the place. The job before that, I was told that I had the job like within the first five minutes. It's those production artist, advertising, etc positions that are harder. I am overqualified for any ordinary job. Not to brrrraaaggg, but the majority of my jobs fast-tracked me into a leadership position. It's really weird for me to be a "low level goon" because I am used to being a manager.
I am not too worried about this business being awful like the last job because I am deeply familiar with it. Anyone has the right to complain about their jobs because suffering from capitalism isn't a competition, but the people that work there tend to forget how nice they have it. This job is truly going to be a breeze for me if I get it.
Okay I must lie down or something. I feel not good.
mar 9, 2026 - 5pm
mood: so hungry...
Weather good. Sun warm. Drawing is fun. I am making a roasted pepper pasta thing. OKOK I know I hate bell peppers, and I put them on my foods I hate page, but I am okay with this dish. I cannot explain it.
You may notice a thing on my to-do list regarding writing a blog post about death. I have many thoughts about death like about mortality, death with dignity, the treatment of a dead body, and more. It's kind of everywhere and frazzled. I want to write something that puts it all together. It's a subject that I enjoy talking about a lot despite being severely thantophobic.
mar 8, 2026 - 3pm
mood: content
I downloaded a game I used to play as a child when I first got my iPod Touch. It's this stupid little fish tank game. I love it.
I also managed to find the Spongebob Fugglers stuff in a random Fleet Farm. I wanted the Spongebob when I first learned about it, but I had no idea they did the other characters. I had to get the Gary. It made me laugh so hard.
mar 6, 2026 - 8pm
mood: weirdly blank, but I'm like.. fine?
I just ate so much food at this local place. I am dying. Everyone that worked there was a baddie? Crazy. Also wandered off into the park that got a new playground, and I don't know how to word this other than I quite literally played on it in the dark.
Bertha, the gas heater, is off for the year. It is way too warm. We're getting like lows in the 20s and 30s, so no more heat. It rained/misted all day too. First good rain of the year.. kinda.
Good news, stickers print the way I want. I am making them myself rather than getting them printed for me. This is probably temporary, but I have the materials to do it all myself. They're going to go through vigorous testing too. I also have a job interview lined up. I'm not getting my hopes up for it, but it is super close to me and the schedule would allow me to still have a life. I would have plenty of time to still work on what I want outside of work, and I would have far less responsibilities compared to my last job. This job would be unionized, pay me more, give me health insurance, good discount, PTO, etc even if I am just part time. I'd have the time to cold email and do freelance work if I wanted to. It just works out well. Maybe I am getting my hopes up...
feb 27, 2026 - 10am
mood: sleeby
Hello hellooo
I made those donuts yesterday. Soooo good mm. It's crazy how you can just making things. You can just fry donuts yourself like it's not even that hard. I highly recommend. I'd add a photo, but I ate most of them already.
Also, a UK-based art magazine has posted an article about the indieweb and Neocities! The person that wrote it, Isaac, had emailed me a while ago, but I've held off on talking about it until it came out. I'm sure the people featured were also contacted about it, but if they weren't, then it's a nice surprise for them!
Shop opening date TBA
feb 25, 2026 - 2pm
mood: yippeeee
I am going to make those donuts tomorrow so we can enjoy them Friday morning. I did make those pretzels though! They are very, very tasty. I am making a food page, so the recipe I used will be there! I'm going to eat these until I am ill.
I must go draw now. Luv you
feb 24, 2026 - 7pm
mood: so hungry
Lots of folks are visiting my site which puts a bit of pressure to finish my shop stuff ngl. I am no where near done with any of it, but I am getting there! Also, Caminus if you are reading this, I did see your email!!
Thanks everyone for your messages. They've been really motivating for me :) if anyone has questions about making a site, you can email me garfriendyay[at]gmail.com and I will try my best! I am no pro. I am honestly just mashing things until it works.
I'm gonna make donuts and soft pretzels tomorrow. I am obsessed with donuts and soft pretzels. I am very excited mmmm
Okay time for me to make dinner :)
feb 23, 2026 - 12pm
mood: lost but antsy
I wish I had more to upload rn, but I don't. My focus is on drawing, but I also feel a little listless about everything. I spent all weekend going out and about with my partner which fixed me honestly. It's crazy how effective just going outside is for depression.
Idk why but I have the creative urge to vlog? Like with my camcorder? Idk what I would do cause things aren't that eventful rn, but it seems fun? It's just another way to yap cause I luv yapping!!!
feb 18, 2026 - 5pm
mood: mm dr pepper again!!!
I got to enjoy some nice 60ºF temperatures for a few days. Today, it is snowing enough to be opaque like a fog. I hope the city doesn't declare a snow emergency. I don't want to move my unwell xB.
I keep putting pressure on myself to create, but I am in a lull a bit. I lose the day, and by the time I realize it, I have to start cooking dinner and settle in for the evening. To reset, I just go to bed and hope the next day is better. It feels like going to bed early in a video game like Stardew Valley just to progress faster except I am doing absolutely no progression at all.
I must settle in for this snowy evening now.
feb 16, 2026 - 3pm
mood: mm dr pepper
I have received many sweet messages regarding my last blog post. You are all very sweet. I may have dealt with shitty things in my past, but I am in a much better + happier place now. Even writing that blog post made me feel better. Perseverance and loving life is the most punk thing anyone can do when facing this terrible world. Existence is resistance! Art proves your existence.
Sometimes, I think whatever I write is weird and bad, but you all being nice about it makes me feel better about it :)
On a happier note, I replaced my lost iPod. Loving it currently. Loving the abnormally warm weather too. I was just starting to get some crazy seasonal depression, and I feel like it got executed by the warm sun. I am facing nature a little too closely though. A mouse died in my stove and the squirrels are breaking into my house. Assholes.
Oh and my site is getting to NekoWeb folks through one of my webrings which is fun.
feb 15, 2026 - 10am
mood: mm coffee
I had too much caffeine yesterday, and I thought I was dying. It was so bad that all I could do was go to bed. Ngl my anxiety was so bad that I was spiraling thinking about how I was tooootally dying and that I wasn't going to wake up. I already have that issue with sleeping, but it was turned way the hell up.
I got the xB's car battery charged, and she started right up. However, she is misiring again. The battery cannot hold voltage. She's maybe running off of just the alternator. This could also mean that the other three coil packs are going out. I only got one swapped when I first got her, but coils usually all go out around the same time. My friend works at a shop, so I get parts cheap. I just gotta do the work myself. It's a yoter so it's all stupidly easy.
So, xB is stuck again until I replace those coils and maybe the battery. It's only $280 for me. I can't move her much lest I ruin her fresh Denso spark plugs with the misfiring. She's so lucky that I adore her enough to put up with this... I did get her for way below market value. Second gen xBs are like $5k+, and I spent $1k. This means the other $4k is gonna be fixing her aaaaaa. That's usually how it just works out with cars tho.
I am itching to draw again. The Fish Feed will be active again soon.
feb 14, 2026 - 9am
mood: boutta fall back asleep it feels like
I miss race cars... I wanna see them again, and I wanna see race cars go forever. It's all I want in life.
Also, looking into how I want to host my shop. I prefer having it on my site itself rather than like on Etsy or Ebay. I wanna make it look fun!
feb 13, 2026 - 3pm
mood: better
I woke up and usually what I do is check Neocities first. Maybe that's not healthy and it goes against my goals of limiting social media. It's usually good vibes tho so I don't feel too bad about it. Today was extra special because TabF5 uploaded their 100 followers page where they have modeled little dudes to be like the sites of the followers. You can view it here! I was almost in tears with joy and laughter about my little guy. He's a gar-aru! Subie rally gar!! They also posted the silly painting I made for them in exchange for a sticker. Very happy morning. I love Neocities :]
feb 12, 2026 - 3pm
mood: aaaa
I am particularly stressed as of late. I find life to be quite difficult, and I am having a hard time processing things. I will be okay tho! I just can't pretend to be happy fish all the time, ya know? It's okay to not be okay sometimes. Feeling okay will come again later.
I have been meaning to illustrate and upload a piece I wrote about the tech industry's idea of humanity. It's pretty existential, but I need to edit it a bit I think. I also can't quite find the way I want to illustrate it. Conveying abstract concepts is hard.
There's another thing that I want to write about, but it'd be a lot more of my own experiences, thoughts, and feelings. It's about the files, and how they recontextualize my identity when I was a child and teenager. Also about my frustration with memetic warfare, desensitizing the masses, and the inescapable male gaze. I just need to get those thoughts out because feeling as if I'd skin a man alive in the streets for even looking at me is extremely unproductive. I am pretty skeptical of a lot of cis men and need them to prove their worth for me to respect them, but man-hating in general is unproductive. I think those around my age who were/are fem presenting would find solidarity in this frustration, and we can all scream about it together.
That piece will come with many trigger warnings if I do write it.
Sorry to be a bummer! I just have many dizzying thoughts, and this is where I can let them out in a more artful way if that makes sense. I don't expect anyone to read anything I write that may affect them negatively. I won't be hurt if you have to prioritize your mental health. I will always give ample warnings if anything I discuss can be triggering to people because I would rather you all keep yourselves safe and sane.
feb 11, 2026 - 1pm
mood: nervous?
I have figured out how to make my hair perfect. I have tried curling it. Using a flat iron. Letting it curly with air drying. Scrunching it. Everything, but I have just perfected the blowdrying technique. Now, it's so perfect. It's exactly how I wanted it to be.
feb 9, 2026 - 12pm
mood: SAD bc I miss race cars..
Helloooo I am back from my trip, so it's time to go crazy on my site yippee. Here's a few things from the rally. More to come when I do a blog post.
Here's a small video of some of the cars just from the bits I got on my phone. I got more on the camcorder, but still not as much as I would hope. It was just so damn cold.
Warning: Might be a little loud. The vuvuzela is so loud.
jan 31, 2026 - 11am
mood: dry, itchy, need water and humidity...
A few things to yap about.
I'm crocheting again. It's purely because I wish I could have the topo designs rolled beanie. It's like the perfect short fit beanie for that art director look. I'm crocheting my own with a thicker yarn. It's entirely past post single crochet so it looks ribbed, but godaaamn it's gonna take a while bc it's single crochet.
My house is so unbelievably dry. My nose is bleeding. My eyes feels like concrete. Every time I get up from the stove and I get near the stove, I am SHOCKED. Like the most painful static shock ever. I have pans of water on top of my heater to combat the dry, but it's not enough. I have a humidifier, but I am out of filters in it rip. This is diabolical. I feel like a lizard.
I'm almost done with a sketchbook already, so I will upload that soon. I have another yet to finish, but then I have to buy another sketchbook. I am pretty bad about actually filling my sketchbooks, but it's much easier when you think of it as a way to develop ideas and skills rather than something to fill up with pretty pictures. I think messier sketchbooks look better, and I am far looser with them than I used to be. I gotta think about what I want in my next sketchbook.
I mentioned selling stickers n stuff on a neocities post. Y'all were very helpful about it. I was genuinely worried about it affecting the vibes of my site. I feel a lot less worried about that. Like I mentioned in my post, it wouldn't be like a major thing on my site. I don't wanna bombard my site with marketing. My site is my little safe space to be myself, so I don't wanna be too fake with the marketing. Anyways, I want to make fun stickers + print shirts :] The shop would be hosted on my site and linked on the "inside shop" page.
I probably won't do any bigger updates until I am back from Michigan, but until then, I might have small updates to my feeds.
Lov u 
jan 25, 2026 - 12pm
mood: blank
The world is scary. All I can do is make goofy webpages.
Updates:
❋ New blog post
❋ Fixed collections page
❋ Rearranged by art page
❋ Added neighbor buttons
❋ Made cool stuff page look a bit better; will make even better later
❋ Added "Fish Feed"; my dupe for instagram sorta?
To come:
❋ Another blog post that is outside of the usual monthly
❋ "Internet Treasures" page
❋ A page for food; faves, hates, + maybe recipes? I don't write anything down so it's hard to write recipes.
❋ Updates to car page
❋ Updated materials page
❋ Tattoo page
jan 23, 2026 - 9am
mood: COLD
The high is -8 degrees today. This is the only time I regret my piercings. The jewelry gets cold. Bertha (the heater) is working like a dog. There's ice on my windows. Not frost. Solid ice. So cold.
jan 22, 2026 - 12pm
mood: not enough coffee
Scooting things around on the site. Added a page for people's buttons bc I am starting to get so many :]
Other pages for food I make + my tattoo work are to come eventually. Not sure what I am going to do exactly with the tattoo stuff. Maybe put up flashes? I haven't tattooed myself or anyone else in a long time, so I don't really have fresh tatt pics. I'm also going to rework the cars page, but it'll be more involved.
I've written a big essay essentially, and I am going to spend the rest of the day illustrating it. It'll be up as a blog post, but the format will be way different from the other posts. Think more editorial.
Anyways, BMW edits in 2024 be like:
jan 19, 2026 - 6pm
mood: sooo hungry
I'm loving graphic design rn. I am also waiting for aurora tonight. My fave ways to track space weather is this site and NOAA's site.
Also waiting for my "chicken burgers" cook. Okokok so I have this classification of chicken sandwiches. "Chicken burger" is the kind that is a patty. "Chicken sandwich" is the breaded chicken breast on a bun. I am having chicken burgers tonight.
My house is so unbelievably dry in my house. My back feels like a lizard. I need help. I am dying.
jan 13, 2026 - 11am
mood: ansty + unsettled
It's hard to be all goofy and silly on my site when my city has been overrun with inept, evil feds. Last night, I was minding my own business in my house when I heard whistles, yelling, and car honking. ICE was being confronted by people who were on lookout including a council member of the city. As I am writing this now, there has been a report of a vehicle full of agents in my neighborhood speeding down a residential street.
They're doing driveby tear gassing, pepperspraying at point plank, leaving unused flash bangs in the street, pushing around CHILDREN ACTUAL CHILDREN ON SCHOOL GROUNDS, and more. People go into hiding at night too. The area gets eerily quiet. We all have to go about our days still, and we have to keep our wits about us. Anyways, here's these fucking geeks slipping on ice. I knew they'd be slipping everywhere.
jan 12, 2026 - 2pm
mood: itching to create
I have been really in the mood to have a new creative endeavor, but I am so in timidated by it. I'm considering making a bunch of patterns for folks to use if they want and like I want to make fun merch for people etc etc. If I made like cute stickers n stuff, would people want them? I'm not really in a place to purchase inventory currently, and I think print on demand sites are sketchy. The quality of print on demand products is so dubious. I don't want people to get shitty products. I have my ideal sticker printer that I like.
Okok my ideal shop would have prints (both like printmaking prints and print prints of illustrations), stickers, stationary, and screenprinted clothing. I'd want it to primarily be stickers because they're the best selling things in shops, and they're easy for people to get regardless of their income.
I also want to make like a mini comic. I really love the old 2015 instagram illustrated diaries or daily mini comics. That's the stuff that introduced me to illustration as a career. Artists like Frannerd and Gemma Correll.
I just love the early instagram era in general. I talked about it in my blog post about being cringe. All of the illustrators popular around that time loved the desaturated + softening filter. It was so overused. I loved it.
A lot of their comics were about the awkward weird girl experience in the world while being almost overly earnest. I was obsessed, and I wanted to be them so badly.
I am really curious about substack being a platform for comics like that. I was inspired by this substack post that I find absolutely beautiful. At the same time, I am questioning what substack would do for me that this site/neocities couldn't. I do have an audience here. Do I need another way to gain visibility? Do I even need the visibility? Obviously as an artist, I do need visibility + an audience to support my work. I am just thinking about how I want to go about it. That's all :]
You all are super rad, and thank you for 300 followers on neocities. I don't follow everyone back.
However, I do look at what you are all up to because you all do inspire me. I get really excited and
kick my little feet when I think about how cool you all are.
I also get a really good laugh from some of the
usernames. Y'all are so funny omg
jan 11, 2026 - 11pm
mood: sleepier
I LOVE ICE CREAM!!!!
jan 11, 2026 - 12am
mood: sleepy
It's late, and I am so tired.
I have been out all day. I met a friend first thing then ran off to the protests. Protests went well. It was cold, but the crowd made it warm.
I've done a lot of scooting stuff around on my site. In that process, I did break a few things, so apologies. Some stuff is a little messed up. Don't mind that until I get the time + energy to fix it.
For those interested, I have posted a new blog post on my newly refreshed + totally fun blog page.
I've archived the previous iteration of this page. Wanted to start fresh for the new year!