a mini blog of sorts
feb 13, 2026 - 3pm
mood: better
I woke up and usually what I do is check Neocities first. Maybe that's not healthy and it goes against my goals of limiting social media. It's usually good vibes tho so I don't feel too bad about it. Today was extra special because TabF5 uploaded their 100 followers page where they have modeled little dudes to be like the sites of the followers. You can view it here! I was almost in tears with joy and laughter about my little guy. He's a gar-aru! Subie rally gar!! They also posted the silly painting I made for them in exchange for a sticker. Very happy morning. I love Neocities :]
feb 12, 2026 - 3pm
mood: aaaa
I am particularly stressed as of late. I find life to be quite difficult, and I am having a hard time processing things. I will be okay tho! I just can't pretend to be happy fish all the time, ya know? It's okay to not be okay sometimes. Feeling okay will come again later.
I have been meaning to illustrate and upload a piece I wrote about the tech industry's idea of humanity. It's pretty existential, but I need to edit it a bit I think. I also can't quite find the way I want to illustrate it. Conveying abstract concepts is hard.
There's another thing that I want to write about, but it'd be a lot more of my own experiences, thoughts, and feelings. It's about the files, and how they recontextualize my identity when I was a child and teenager. Also about my frustration with memetic warfare, desensitizing the masses, and the inescapable male gaze. I just need to get those thoughts out because feeling as if I'd skin a man alive in the streets for even looking at me is extremely unproductive. I am pretty skeptical of a lot of cis men and need them to prove their worth for me to respect them, but man-hating in general is unproductive. I think those around my age who were/are fem presenting would find solidarity in this frustration, and we can all scream about it together.
That piece will come with many trigger warnings if I do write it.
Sorry to be a bummer! I just have many dizzying thoughts, and this is where I can let them out in a more artful way if that makes sense. I don't expect anyone to read anything I write that may affect them negatively. I won't be hurt if you have to prioritize your mental health. I will always give ample warnings if anything I discuss can be triggering to people because I would rather you all keep yourselves safe and sane.
<3
feb 11, 2026 - 1pm
mood: nervous?
I have figured out how to make my hair perfect. I have tried curling it. Using a flat iron. Letting it curly with air drying. Scrunching it. Everything, but I have just perfected the blowdrying technique. Now, it's so perfect. It's exactly how I wanted it to be.
feb 9, 2026 - 12pm
mood: SAD bc I miss race cars..
Helloooo I am back from my trip, so it's time to go crazy on my site yippee. Here's a few things from the rally. More to come when I do a blog post.
Here's a small video of some of the cars just from the bits I got on my phone. I got more on the camcorder, but still not as much as I would hope. It was just so damn cold.
Warning: Might be a little loud. The vuvuzela is so loud.
jan 31, 2026 - 11am
mood: dry, itchy, need water and humidity...
A few things to yap about.
I'm crocheting again. It's purely because I wish I could have the topo designs rolled beanie. It's like the perfect short fit beanie for that art director look. I'm crocheting my own with a thicker yarn. It's entirely past post single crochet so it looks ribbed, but godaaamn it's gonna take a while bc it's single crochet.
My house is so unbelievably dry. My nose is bleeding. My eyes feels like concrete. Every time I get up from the stove and I get near the stove, I am SHOCKED. Like the most painful static shock ever. I have pans of water on top of my heater to combat the dry, but it's not enough. I have a humidifier, but I am out of filters in it rip. This is diabolical. I feel like a lizard.
I'm almost done with a sketchbook already, so I will upload that soon. I have another yet to finish, but then I have to buy another sketchbook. I am pretty bad about actually filling my sketchbooks, but it's much easier when you think of it as a way to develop ideas and skills rather than something to fill up with pretty pictures. I think messier sketchbooks look better, and I am far looser with them than I used to be. I gotta think about what I want in my next sketchbook.
I mentioned selling stickers n stuff on a neocities post. Y'all were very helpful about it. I was genuinely worried about it affecting the vibes of my site. I feel a lot less worried about that. Like I mentioned in my post, it wouldn't be like a major thing on my site. I don't wanna bombard my site with marketing. My site is my little safe space to be myself, so I don't wanna be too fake with the marketing. Anyways, I want to make fun stickers + print shirts :] The shop would be hosted on my site and linked on the "inside shop" page.
I probably won't do any bigger updates until I am back from Michigan, but until then, I might have small updates to my feeds.
Lov u 
jan 25, 2026 - 12pm
mood: blank
The world is scary. All I can do is make goofy webpages.
Updates:
❋ New blog post
❋ Fixed collections page
❋ Rearranged by art page
❋ Added neighbor buttons
❋ Made cool stuff page look a bit better; will make even better later
❋ Added "Fish Feed"; my dupe for instagram sorta?
To come:
❋ Another blog post that is outside of the usual monthly
❋ "Internet Treasures" page
❋ A page for food; faves, hates, + maybe recipes? I don't write anything down so it's hard to write recipes.
❋ Updates to car page
❋ Updated materials page
❋ Tattoo page
jan 23, 2026 - 9am
mood: COLD
The high is -8 degrees today. This is the only time I regret my piercings. The jewelry gets cold. Bertha (the heater) is working like a dog. There's ice on my windows. Not frost. Solid ice. So cold.
jan 22, 2026 - 12pm
mood: not enough coffee
Scooting things around on the site. Added a page for people's buttons bc I am starting to get so many :]
Other pages for food I make + my tattoo work are to come eventually. Not sure what I am going to do exactly with the tattoo stuff. Maybe put up flashes? I haven't tattooed myself or anyone else in a long time, so I don't really have fresh tatt pics. I'm also going to rework the cars page, but it'll be more involved.
I've written a big essay essentially, and I am going to spend the rest of the day illustrating it. It'll be up as a blog post, but the format will be way different from the other posts. Think more editorial.
Anyways, BMW edits in 2024 be like:
jan 19, 2026 - 6pm
mood: sooo hungry
I'm loving graphic design rn. I am also waiting for aurora tonight. My fave ways to track space weather is this site and NOAA's site.
Also waiting for my "chicken burgers" cook. Okokok so I have this classification of chicken sandwiches. "Chicken burger" is the kind that is a patty. "Chicken sandwich" is the breaded chicken breast on a bun. I am having chicken burgers tonight.
My house is so unbelievably dry in my house. My back feels like a lizard. I need help. I am dying.
jan 13, 2026 - 11am
mood: ansty + unsettled
It's hard to be all goofy and silly on my site when my city has been overrun with inept, evil feds. Last night, I was minding my own business in my house when I heard whistles, yelling, and car honking. ICE was being confronted by people who were on lookout including a council member of the city. As I am writing this now, there has been a report of a vehicle full of agents in my neighborhood speeding down a residential street.
They're doing driveby tear gassing, pepperspraying at point plank, leaving unused flash bangs in the street, pushing around CHILDREN ACTUAL CHILDREN ON SCHOOL GROUNDS, and more. People go into hiding at night too. The area gets eerily quiet. We all have to go about our days still, and we have to keep our wits about us. Anyways, here's these fucking geeks slipping on ice. I knew they'd be slipping everywhere.
jan 12, 2026 - 2pm
mood: itching to create
I have been really in the mood to have a new creative endeavor, but I am so in timidated by it. I'm considering making a bunch of patterns for folks to use if they want and like I want to make fun merch for people etc etc. If I made like cute stickers n stuff, would people want them? I'm not really in a place to purchase inventory currently, and I think print on demand sites are sketchy. The quality of print on demand products is so dubious. I don't want people to get shitty products. I have my ideal sticker printer that I like.
Okok my ideal shop would have prints (both like printmaking prints and print prints of illustrations), stickers, stationary, and screenprinted clothing. I'd want it to primarily be stickers because they're the best selling things in shops, and they're easy for people to get regardless of their income.
I also want to make like a mini comic. I really love the old 2015 instagram illustrated diaries or daily mini comics. That's the stuff that introduced me to illustration as a career. Artists like Frannerd and Gemma Correll.
I just love the early instagram era in general. I talked about it in my blog post about being cringe. All of the illustrators popular around that time loved the desaturated + softening filter. It was so overused. I loved it.
A lot of their comics were about the awkward weird girl experience in the world while being almost overly earnest. I was obsessed, and I wanted to be them so badly.
I am really curious about substack being a platform for comics like that. I was inspired by this substack post that I find absolutely beautiful. At the same time, I am questioning what substack would do for me that this site/neocities couldn't. I do have an audience here. Do I need another way to gain visibility? Do I even need the visibility? Obviously as an artist, I do need visibility + an audience to support my work. I am just thinking about how I want to go about it. That's all :]
You all are super rad, and thank you for 300 followers on neocities. I don't follow everyone back.
However, I do look at what you are all up to because you all do inspire me. I get really excited and
kick my little feet when I think about how cool you all are.
I also get a really good laugh from some of the
usernames. Y'all are so funny omg
jan 11, 2026 - 11pm
mood: sleepier
I LOVE ICE CREAM!!!!
jan 11, 2026 - 12am
mood: sleepy
It's late, and I am so tired.
I have been out all day. I met a friend first thing then ran off to the protests. Protests went well. It was cold, but the crowd made it warm.
I've done a lot of scooting stuff around on my site. In that process, I did break a few things, so apologies. Some stuff is a little messed up. Don't mind that until I get the time + energy to fix it.
For those interested, I have posted a new blog post on my newly refreshed + totally fun blog page.
I've archived the previous iteration of this page. Wanted to start fresh for the new year!